a computer should not hibernate

since the days of XP, windows includes a feature called “hibernation.” it is like shutting down, but saves open programs and processes to re-establish once it is brought “out” of hibernation.

i don’t have a problem with the shutting down part (done to save power). the problem is the waking part. at one point, with my old XP desktop, windows hibernated and i never could wake up the monitor again. did something to the firmware, or left hole open to a virus? never could quite figure it out.

in that same fashion, i shut my lap top for it to sleep, come back a half hour later and instead of resuming — it had to go through Bios to start up again, because it “hibernated.” except getting the laptop to even turn on after hibernation, is a harder task. like i have to mentally scream at it — i don’t know how to explain. in many ways, i believe including “sleep” and “hibernation” in an operating system is pure folly. it’s like building trap doors in the bottom of a boat.

is it really THAT hard to shut off a computer when you’re done using it? and microsoft REALLY wants you to “sleep” your computer rather than shutting it down …. the power defaults for the SHUT DOWN BUTTON, the hardware button on PC’s — has been relegated to a sleep function for years, now. people think they are shutting off their computer, but they are really leaving it open to “wake on LAN” — to wake up remotely. of course the reasoning for this is so that windows can install updates at 3am in the morning….but the real reason is more like they want to be able to use your machine as a server to distribute more software.

it’s kind of ok, and kind of not. setting up daisy-chains of server networks is yet another incidence of building trap doors in the bottom of a boat. is a very vulnerable way to set things in motion, only need one hacker in that network of servers to create interesting amounts of disaster.

and the hibernation is set to happen so many minutes after sleep, which seems practical, but then it is going into a hibernation state from a sleep state…. and i always have to cold cock my machines then to bring them back to life.

what i am saying, microsoft — is the “energy saving” is really NOT that big a thing, and people REALLY are capable of turning off their machines when they are done with them. in the matter of battery-run, yes turn it off when it runs out of juice. or before it runs out too much to save its settings. other than that, i’m sort of tired of ALWAYS having to adjust the default settings from “hibernate” to not-hibernate — which can only be done by increasing the time frame to several days rather than minutes. there is no way to shut it off, and that is a big hole in programming, but it is a deliberate hole that puts too much power in the hands of its maker to simply shut down any machine any where at any time.

where is the trust? i left it sitting with my dead monitor years ago …. thrown out with the garbage when i understood that was the way things are. i want to see some good, honest moves in programming. you get people used to a sleep function, they get lazy. and then lazily do not expect more control over their machines. it does what it does, and the user just sort of blinks. it all points to bad. there may be no way to backtrack and eliminate sleep and hibernation …. but good lord, can’t it be set up as a CHOICE, rather than being shoved down our throats?

denying forever

the day feels flat
barely able to mold into relief
more likely to be crumpled up
like a piece of paper

thrown away
in the waste of time

how to salvage such a beginning?
mistakes that are only mistakes
by looking back

the fall of sand
the tick of a clock
the empty pages
of a book not written

where is my hope?
where is joy and peace?
arduous task of looking forward
and knowing
strength is in the mind
or maybe the heart

certainly not the flow and ebb
of a summer day
with me judging myself

success is overcoming regrets
with a smile
rest gets crumpled up anyway
a waste of time
never really lost
when these pages do not decay

when the flat essence
is merely waiting
to be spread again
formed into a quiet nature of matter
abstracting time
…..as never pauses for nothing


on the next line

finish what you started
better skilled than others
living on your own terms
living among the terms of others
variance to the small degree
no sudden movements
collecting more things
the alpha male has more nuts
calm in a crisis
no crisis would be better
the only real race to win
is to race against yourself
next day better than the last
of course have to remember the day before?
prepare for the worst
yet expectations manifest results
being at the front of the herd
the back of the herd is the braver spot?
above the herd to see where it’s going
dying in a hospital
not the better option for anyone
collection of sadists claiming superiority
flying above
flying away
growing a rose
or growing petunias half dead
and marked down to $2
more nuts?
whoever diesĀ  with the most
nuts wins
watching a squirrel
on a telephone line
and smiling…..
is winter to be feared?
mastering fear
you have to have fear to master it
ignorance the better part of glory
what defines success?


quantifying broader use

oh this day is not mine to give!
dreams settled
in every anxiety,
and the form was perfect.
or rather, far from unfinished.
i blanched in fear,
to learn how close to obsolete
joy ambled.

did you know it’s the air?
distance can’t breathe when clouds
are close, like there is
no time for oxygen.

and how does it matter?
fine trails of fear are nothing,
compared to despair.

despair doesn’t trail at all,
it sits in one spot
waiting for the dearth of pity.

someday i want everyone to understand
that all was the problem;
shutting forever inside minds,
unwilling to compromise
solidified solids.
time does not pay for growth
without weariness, and when was
the last time earth laughed?
or moons betrayed?

it is a careless time, for
careless people.

i was short on desire
because teasing taught me to hate
any craving for better,
then called morose love
simple physiology ….when
all humans fall prey
to industry!  industry never fails,
and life just measures levels
of stupid and then complains
more deeply.

one must understand
that amplified correlation
does not always prove cause and
the storm is coming in now;
i know because a wind sock spins,
or does the spinning sock
create this storm?

so the more than one
points to cause; it is the everyone
swallowed in senseless self-pity,
that points to an agent, a catalyst.

oh, it is terrible, this day!
but this particular one will be lived through,
pity effects nothing
and time heals all wounds
except the growing wound of time!
give us your tired, your poor, your smiling insanity–
while hope and
hopelessness both gathered
(nothing more than) dust on the ground.
dispicable, the past holds strength
and weakness in a lively mix,
every last forgiveness
crying out, “i suffered, too!”


slumbering catalyst

and i sit on the patio listening to rain
remembering that the world is love
but love is not the world
rhythm of the day
yet silence of the mind
is this peace?
i imagine so
and it will end with a beginning

of so many plans filtered to priorities
and so many hopes shelved

to read to a distant me
somewhere down this path
i have known, and known well