Because her smile only covers the teeth

It’s so weird to hear

To hear the words

Out of

Out of another


My own argument

But truth told

Was before even me

Her argument

As the child

I adopted it

Considered it all the way

The path of reasoned excellence

I was wrong.


Listening to my own argument

To OUR argument

Coming from the mouth of another

I think about what it is to learn

To progress

To develop comprehensions

To flow into deeper realization

Because the real is so elusive

So amazingly coy.

No, we were wrong,

She was wrong.

It’s not ok to say they must


Behind the bedroom door

And it’s wrong because there

Is a definition of spirit

… Woven

The blend includes

The bedroom

There is no separation

And therefore the


Her’s, and once upon mine…

Was ill-informed

And ill-sighted

But I never saw it so wrong

As I did

When hearing it

Almost word for word

From another mouth.

I never felt so ashamed

For a past involving a reasoning

So pervasive, so seemingly logical… it caught

And destroyed

Further discernment borne by

Methodical grace.


I wish cellphones were built differently

I’ll tell you what I need for a cellophone. First off, forget the shape, it needs to be shorter so can fit in the palm. A 4:3 screen ratio, then.

Nobody uses their phone to TALK anymore, so what is the friggin POINT of making it a long, awkward shape? Oh, that’s right, so it will slip out of a hand easily and break so you can sell more. NO. Stop this craziness.

Speaking of breaking, why is the casing always so slippery that you have to buy a case for it just so it won’t go flying out of your hand? So in addition to changing the size so it will actually fit in an average palm size, would have the back of phones bumpy instead of smooth. I don’t know why this is so hard to figure out.

A smaller size that will fit in a pocket, no screen should be bigger than 4.5 inch diagonal. But make the small phone WITH a powerful camera. For some reason, the smaller phones now are all lower specs. There’s no reason for that. Why should I have to carry around a giant energy-hog device just to get decent specs like a good camera or gpu?

A smaller screen also creates less light exposure and less eye strain. It’s just overall a better option.

I would also like them all default to auto-answer and auto-speaker. So you could answer your phone from across the room and not have to have it in your pocket while at home. At one point I found a setting that would automatically answer phone calls after the 4th ring…I don’t know where that setting went to now.

I want the Android developers to stop looking for ways to be cute, and instead take classes from an efficiency expert. Who wants the list of apps HIDDEN, and in its place you get a randomly organized list of recently used apps? So it takes another click to get to the actual list. HINT: it doesn’t save time or energy to have to scan 10 random apps for one you need that may or may not be on the list…that is NOT faster or easier than just looking on a friggin alphabetical list.

It’s stupid changes like that, that just pisses me off. Like doesn’t Google have enough money to hire experts that could time the differences in access time? How hard is that? So is the purpose to discourage users from even checking or knowing what apps are on their phones? And if you’re that big a dicks, then why don’t just remove the app list altogether? I can respect that more than these mental mind game bs that’s no better than shooting rats in a maze. It’s all a level of insanity that I won’t be able to stomach much longer. Get smartphones on the right track …and less dumb. Show us that there’s hope in the world, that real thinking people actually do exist somewhere in the ethos of silicone valley.

It’s not that big a deal. I just don’t understand what’s wrong with the whole lot of you….Google, Apple, etc. Seems like no one has a brain in their head.

It’s All How You Look at Flat and Round…Boobs, anyone?

Oh I have no idea. None of it. My theory is that earth is a ball and we live on the inside of it. So outerspace is actually inner space, that compacts as it moves inwards (as you get farther from the earth, are actually going deeper inside it.) lol … because, why not? There’s no law that the laws of physics that govern the surface of the earth, also must govern space itself. Gravity is missing, for instance. Throw something in space, it keeps going. No friction. But who’s to say that’s because friction just does not exist? Because all that is, is saying some concept you generated stopped working once you passed a boundary. But they never go back to the drawing board, and say the original concept is wrong. why? because everybody already learned that, and then built THEIR discoveries on top of that concept or understanding.

And the issue we HAVE, and why we are having it NOW — is because there is far too much deceit in the world. So much deceit for the sake of sale, for the sake of capitalism … that no one is quite sure that any truth exists. All they know is that other humans try to fool you. And they try to fool you a LOT. So why should science be any different? That’s what’s going on with that.

I’m not sure of the answer regarding the creation of a SHARED understanding — a SHARED concept of reality. maybe it shouldn’t be shared. maybe everybody should develop their own and see where it leads. let your own life mean something. don’t be a cog. don’t be a grain of sand melted into glass. be what you see, smell, touch. come to your own conclusions — after sampling the thoughts and minds of others.

religion has always been a little crazy, why would that be a surprise? fact is, God only loves you if life is great, other than that, it doesn’t much feel like God loves you. It feels like crap if you’re hungry or homeless, and no amount of singing can erase the crap part. You can get high, and many do. Drink. Get away from it all, leave your awful life and go on a vacation. I don’t have an answer.

But you can’t look at our world OBJECTIVELY without thinking “this shit’s pretty messed up.” What is coming out with the more farfetched “truths” such as deciding the earth is flat after all….. is NOT that they are more false. It’s that they are farther away from the norm … they have a greater arc ratio from the beaten path. Some have no intersection at all. So what. AND WHY that’s ‘so what’ is because you’re STARTING WITH THE PREMISE THAT ALL SHOULD BELIEVE IN THE SAME PROCESS.

start asking yourselves why? sometimes it’s necessary, to function as a group. but THIS much? And what happens is that human beings have finite capacity. comprehension is a finite function. those who are unable to comprehend higher science and math, do not have an accurate dumbed down version available. DO NOT. so when they are told “this is how it IS, because all of us say so!” — that then limits their own capacities and capabilities to investigate something meaningful for THEM and their lives.

And you all wonder why so many kill themselves. Let it go. All of it … your premise is wrong. We don’t have to all see it the same way. Is my innerspace concept ANY LESS crazy than a flat earth? no. But there is never AN INCLINATION to jump me when i tell people — they laugh or nod. And that is because it does not threaten the norm. Something threatens the norm, then humans jump into defense of the norm, solidifying that belief in themselves.

SO HOW YOU ARE PLAYED, is that the more a norm needs to be solidified, the more you will be motivated to defend it and declare it the reality. THEREFORE….my question ……….. is why do they need to solidify the concept of a round earth so badly? that’s all. maybe we’re in a flux universe, where every other inch actually has a mile between it and it’s all stretched at periodical intervals — you just don’t realize it because the relevance remains a constant.

it’s all how you look at things …… i simply suggest that since the children are learning to think, and can figure out how much is played faster than you can say tomato ……. (you were figuring it out too, once — we just become resigned to it). well ……maybe not allowing the plays to go on and on ad infinitum, might be something to think about. There’s not much left anyone can depend on. I understand pushing the dependence of a reality based on global science. But you realize, that they then have to UNLEARN all that in order to actually learn physics? All the concepts have to be rerouted.

I reference my grandmother a lot, even in memory she is a bit of a touchstone. And one of the things her wisdom HAD, as an educator — was the ability to LISTEN, and say that’s possible. She didn’t try to mold ideas, but grew them gently. Some of those, I’ve killed completely because I just don’t believe in mystic BS. But it took her exiting from the world, dying — for me to realize where her beliefs ended and mine began.

Mostly, don’t charge in so quickly to defend a norm, a principle of science. Because you must understand that EVEN WHAT YOU ARE DEFENDING is the inaccurate dumbed-down version for the populace. Not the actual science on it. You’re defending the layman’s view. And that’s usually JUST as inaccurate and sometimes moreso, than the reality spelled out by science itself. There is a reason physics 101 comes before physics 102. It all builds, to help grow that understanding and comprehension. You lock into something SO HARD that you can’t grow it? Gonna stay stunted. Will never “get” what you learn at the university, will ONLY MEMORIZE it. What happens when you melt and harden sand into glass? it can be shattered. don’t solidify anything. Stay sand. EVERYONE’s WRONG. get used to it.

Rote memorization of knowledge is never tested properly, never fully comprehended, only mirrored and built one ontop of another –which means some if not all of our knowledge and science, delves farther and farther into some serious inaccuracies. Because it’s built in the wrong direction. Starts with the wrong premise, one that was originally formatted in layman’s terms. Don’t judge those who want to go BACKWARDS — maybe the way forward didn’t make much sense to them and they’re trying to find something that DOES. Loosen the norms! Otherwise the amplitude of societal instability will increase as it fractures into solidified parts. You’ll all be very sure of yourselves. And surely at war. Have some doubt — some wonder. Some endless possibilities, as far as the imagination can stretch and grow, and yes…. learn.

I can hear my grandma’s voice — “You really proud of yourself, now?” Which can only mean one thing … I surpassed the need to shut up about 5 paragraphs ago.

Harvest Stripes

Rows of teeth

That grind solely,

Soul-ly on;


Softened, then

By time,

Where none can find

A method of the gravest madness

Bent to all that tune the hoe

Of conflict’s clime.


Where did the shadows go? The flowers

Are still here, the sounds of cake

Shall echo parks,

Defy the bravest ear.


I have no bone

Of patriotic wonder,

Only gasps

Of patriotic dreams…

What next to plan(t)?


How does this future seem,

With so much future dead and in

The grip of brave installments,

Wanting plays.


To capsize drifts!

To warm insipid delays,

The cusp–

The wide divides–are struck

On this, on these, Memorial Days.

What shall we glean? Such

Hope to harvest hopes,

Lay fears to rest, not seeds

Nor aspirations.

Buried with the future’s best

In rows

And rows of teeth;

No Earth that smiled more!

Than ours

That honored fallen soldiers

With more notes of crying “charge!”


I have no answer other

Than the one, that war

Will bleed romantic as it

Kills and bleeds (y)our sons,

Flesh is torn

When methods of such madness

stop at madness borne,

By honest stripes of sorrow;

Worry whipped

To fear.


What does our Earth hold dear?

What dear is made?

Between the rows of teeth,

What song is left to weep?

I know that peace

Is grown from strength, and so

I pray

To own my strength’s belief and

honor those who fell, to smile and wink…

To look beyond this dell

Of death

And hate, to see

To see that cost weighs more

Than none can say, only silence

Through cruel hearts

Of warring nations plant cruel ground,


Our harvest is the meaning

Of a life in service, blend.

But service is the price

That failed diplomacy pays!

Old men send young to die,

Send moms to fight

Their sorrow

So vote with all your might

rather than

Cry, declare what Patriots are they!


Vote this 2020

Do what’s right

For dead is dead

Earth’s path will grind

Through all Memorial Days


I cannot weep, I cannot shut a sealed door…

Have only me.

Can only say no honor beats

The heart that’s lost in war.

Fool me once from sea to shining sea

Let’s make it clear, the reason trump doesn’t clarify on exactly whatever he wins in the trade deals, is because there aren’t any.

He just went in with a demolition crew, tore down the current agreements, and put back the same ones … then took credit for what he tore down and replaced.

The thing about a trade agreement with asia, is there is nothing for him to tear down and replace, so he won’t make any trade deal with Asia or China.

Look at reality….the only original work of any kind that trump did was to give HIMSELF a million dollar tax break … And he had Congress do most of the work on that.

I’ve been trained to recognize this kind of crap, this flim flam. Grandma Roma was a pretty good teacher. Rule number one of flim flam observation is don’t let them know you see through their ploy. Schemes and designs, stay silent.

Hence, going to Lutheran school, I remained silent through to graduation and 8th grade.

So many schemes and games in the world, but there is a consistency to physics of existence that retains a redemptive quality.

I was watching The View other day, and the one host starts talking about how the body shaming used to be rampant… How women were seen in the 70’s, and this is true….that if we weren’t toothpicks we were called pigs. Or dogs. But that almost seems like a different world, now.

Everyone impacts time and history, but our generation from the 60’s is leaving the world better than we found it. WE did that, took away the awful amount of women used as objects, where the best job you could get was playboy bunny or housewife of the year. The levels of advancement for women, and real careers. It happened because justice is on our side. The law is on our side. Trump continually fights the law for a reason.

The heman on his throne, who makes sure the men with spread legs stand behind him. As if stupidly misinterpreting the stand of attention on purpose. I watch that and look at the games…so many games!

All about looks, for the man who plastered gold on his livingroom walls, it’s all about looks and appearance.

And as far as tricking the people regarding trade deals, truly …you need people who can concentrate on the work itself, not just tunnel vision on the tricks and their only fear is how they look. No offense to real estate friends, but that’s kind of what middlemen businesses specialize in: the ability to make others think they couldn’t do it without them. To look good.

Trump sells himself, his constant message to the American people is, “you couldn’t do it without me.”

But you could, America …there was never a need for demolition. Never a need for saviors of economy when it was already on the way up. And where nothing is built, nothing can rise because some leaders are not the kind of leaders who create, they only destroy.

Mostly I would say, check if a man is a hedonist before you hire him. That’s where the fools get it wrong. You see, an opposite of hedonist is someone who sacrifices, and the presidency requires dedication and sacrifice. Only reason you even think hedonist trump is doing anything is because he constantly whines and complains at every step. And even that is a game and lies, even that.

Don’t give me the BS that this is some kind of honest president. He’s f*cking your head gently.

Grandma taught me to recognize it. She taught me so much that she apologized as she left, figured that she was what set me crazy. But what sent me crazy was the level of evil, not the fact that recognizing it rang every alarmbell that sanity ever held.

Have a good memorial day weekend. Looks like it’s more rain, here. Rain and the decided feeling that God just can’t stop crying.