Sometimes it takes a village

I’m trying to analyze crazy

Bear with me

But like with McGowan last night


I know that state

That place

I have two explanations…

one, is that it is part of being a channel to a

Earth spirit of some sort

Tapping in to a different network

Of some kind

But the other explanation

Is that it’s a delayed childhood development

that what we call “mania”

Is actually a delayed childhood development

In some ways, the mind playing catch up

Certain functions just didn’t come online earlier

So like with McGowan … children will notice

That all the men are in these stoic colors

And that social norms limit

What people wear

And then they will reconcile that somehow

In many ways, a decision

To tow the line with convention or not

The teenage years where those decisions reach an apex

But in delayed development,

The child didn’t notice the men dressed blandly

It didn’t register

Or if it did,

It had to be sidelined

Because more important things were happening

Like with me

I had to deal with my parent’s death

I lost a whole chunk of observational childhood time

Because I was busy trying to figure out death

And it’s not like religion ever had very good answers

To the why of things (no offense, it’s noble to try)

Ok…. so follow me here….

The shelved childhood observations come back later in life

There would be a trigger

Of course

But depending on how much was shelved

If it all comes back at once

There’s an overwhelming need to detail it all.

Not so much to have the answers yourself

But to take ALL that processing time….

The mull…

And convert it into teaching, as a type

Of altruistic venture

To teach

What you have learned…from the mull.

And the only problem is….. That most of the time

That sort of compacted processing

Comes off as mania, as crazy … because they are only great revelations to the person doing the talking, to the person doing the processing. And of course, the collective form of that is like the hippie beat parties, the stoned ones that go into a different processing phase and won’t remember the conversations later. In the morning it’s all gone–but a sense of completion is felt.

Wowed with your own thoughts ….

Without realizing that detailing a problem more doesn’t solve it.

I really like a line from “The Big Bang Theory” where Sheldon says to Penny: “Is there a station coming up where I can board your giggling train of thought?”

Complex strings of logic are important. And they can be creative.

And i don’t think it’s wrong

I think what is wrong is to constantly drug up and interrupt

A process that might need to come to its own conclusion

Of course

I say that as a person who has been interrupted many times….

And then you have to start over

And then they tell you that your “illness”

Is cyclical…. which makes just about much sense as believing

Those who manic are channeling the great earth spirit… or possessed.

So I believe it’s a delayed childhood development

The triggers are demortia spur … (like I coined previously in one writing.)

The threat to life …. the trigger of survival.

And the physical part of it is the lack of sleep

And lack of food

But also, the lack of security.

Security that often can only be found

Within an inclusion by others… community… family, friends.

The more crazy you go, the more excluded you become…. so THAT part is cyclical.


Culminating in a spin or lack of grounding, and what would almost be a desperate re-processing … a reverting in some ways…. to that observational childhood state. Rehashing what was never reconciled.

Nobody gave an adequate explanation.

And I do think it comes down to missing chunks of education … though being raised by teachers leaves me to think everything involves education somehow.

But how many of us say…. “If I only knew then what I know now.”


So I don’t think it’s a terrible thing. Mania or insanity or whatever you want to call spin because of its disconnection.

I think it needs to be treated as a stage of life for some. It is certainly a stage that is currently more acceptable socially in males than it is in females.

Males manic all the time, and it manifests as aggression. Doesn’t key in to the verbal centers. Only males that do have their childhood delayed development key into the verbal centers, are deemed manic or insane.

So for one thing, society…. our culture…. places far too much evaluation of other members, upon language and how they communicate. Men often deal with it by not talking at all. We have the saying that is very popular–“Better to remain silent and let them think you are stupid, than to open up your mouth and remove all doubt.”

It’s not wrong. It’s just a little twisted. The reality is that it’s better to talk and rely on trust, than it is to remain silent and remove all doubt that you are not trustworthy. That’s twisted, too. The end part, is “than it is to remain silent and remove all doubt that you are not interested in understanding another human being.” It’s just not very catchy.

And I can’t pass that by, without saying that the follow-though on that, is it becomes more socially acceptable to use other people, rather than to care about them. So maybe less idioms about not getting to know each other, would be a good thing. *snark snark snarky alert*

To continue…

The more focused on language, the more art. Crazy people are famously artistic….. because why? Verbal doesn’t cut it.

There is too much to be processed, and put into words.

And the connection… the community connection with others… is lacking.

So not only do you wish you knew then what you know now…but there is an abundance of singular knowing, and a lack of–or distancing from–collective comprehensions.

Now….. I’ve worked to get the understanding made live, with the term “gaslighting” so that people in general would have an awareness of those points where others, sometimes unknowingly, oppress others by invalidating them.

In some ways, it’s disturbing to me that that was brought up by McGowan …. as one of the elements in her “catch-up loop.”

It’s not about me.

Believe me, I tell myself that a dozen times a day.

But ideas can be potent, and there needs to be at least some feelings of responsibility. Not to mention that often times,

It’s the medium. It’s the environment that will spark the same revelation across the board in many at the same time.

So to always think a revelation comes exclusively from yourself …is a point of arrogance.

It’s also a pathway to madness.

The insanity found in most religious leaders.

The start of movements or cults or religions are often collective revelations. Instigated by environmental factors.

So anyway…. my main point, is that I believe mania or that brand of crazy….. is a delayed childhood development phenom.

Related to speech development.

Caused by teaching children to speak too early.

Not enough silent observational time…. so it happens later after connected to the speech centers. Sometimes much later, depending on how much gets shelved, and needs processing.

The cause of teaching children to speak too early, is my summation. It’s definitely only in the hypothesis stage.

But I believe, thanks to Baby Einstein … we are going find out rather soon, how developing language too early might effect mental health in an adult.

It’s possible there is no absolute. In that, going really really early, would also miss the window of causality, as well as going really really late… in the teaching of language. But it also might have to do with quantity levels, rather than time parameters.

It is also fair to note that children who grow up bilingual, rarely have signs of mental instability as adults. Their only issue is that when humans are collectively spinning, they don’t.

Mass insanity is real–you take part in it every time an audience begins clapping. Every time a band gets people to start dancing. Those are COLLECTIVE spins. Collective manic. As long as everyone is doing it, it’s ok.

That’s where the rub is, of course.

Oh well….. there are things that can be done, I believe, to limit the number of those who have trouble in the future. But I also believe that IF mental illness is not divorced from the money-making machine that it is for the healthcare industry…. we are just going to see a lot more of it.

All I have said and concluded, might be already known and played. You just never know, in this world. Greed is like that.

Evil for the sake of profiting some at the expense of others. It’s not like we don’t see that in all walks of life. And business.

In fact, the absolute horror of that revelation was one of my own delayed childhood development “spin” times.

And that is key. Make no mistake, that the emotion felt during spin, is horror.

Getting people seduced to horror, reveling in it in movies, is not an answer. It only delays the delayed development. Sets the the revelation horror to a higher bar.

Eh…. maybe. I think I’m grasping at straws as my train of thought tries to find its station.

Directive is:

Lower the language development in early childhood.

For those experiencing mania or who are spinning …knock them out. An injection of phenobarbital, IV for fluids, feed them good when they wake up. Send them home.

Locking them up so you get to watch them together bounce off of each other, and make fun of them….is not good. It’s cruel. Cruel and unusual punishment to those who committed no crime.

Using them (those spinning, divorced from collective processing) to experiment on the ten thousand ways you can modify human behavior with drugs … is cruel. It speaks more about those doing the experiments, than the ones experimented upon.

And so that’s that.

Now I’m going to eat cake. Well, it’s really a pan of cornbread I made the other day, but you get my gist.

Don’t make fun of those trying to process the evil and inconsistencies of this world….. it’s a LOT. You should be handing out medals for their effort. My message to Rose Mcgowan…. is it IS brave. Brave and dangerous. And necessary.

But also, your sisters are dicking with you, Rose. Some people think it’s funny to feed the self-importance of others. The ones you can trust are those who make you feel humble.

The next level is waiting. And so is that cornbread. And home. And a reality that has a foundation. One I found all by myself, with a little bit of help from those that went before. Tradition.

The pan that is dented, and well used, that was my grandmother’s. The bread I made with a pinch of this and that. And a box of Jiffy mix (I’m no martyr).

The love I can feel, even now, that brings a quiet tear for the loss of the one person who always seemed to understand. My keeper? She loved me. That’s all I need to know. That’s all any child needs to know about their parent.

Psychology …. mental illness… not always the parent’s fault. Sometimes it takes a village.


A dissertation on societal motivations beyond punishment and reward: religion according to Trump

I am currently researching and considering the foundation of religion in this current president, that was raised with and influenced by Norman Vincent Peale. Many consider him the “father” of the “positive thinking” movement. But it embraces the dynamics of evangelical religious doctrine, in that all blessings on Earth are a product of approval by God. With the balance on that a belief in poverty or misfortune as the judgment by God for not doing His will.

Basically, it bypasses the notion of reward or punishment in an afterlife, and believes God is punishing and rewarding in real time. You know what is “good” or “bad” not according to policy or morality, but according to your own personal betterment following actions or decisions.

So if you punch someone in the face, for example — and nothing bad happens, only the respect for you and around you grows — then that is considered a right thing to do and you were doing God’s will.

And then the justification flowing from that, is that the person you hurt was a person who is NOT doing God’s will. That you are only the messenger, it is really God that hurt them. If God didn’t want you to punch them in the face, you would have received some kind of punishment for doing it.

When combined with wealth, and those who often get to “punch” others with little to no repercussions — it’s a recipe for bad behavior by those in power.

Now, specifically to the Peale religious tenets – there is a belief that you must “visualize” your success. Basically, enforces a method of lying to yourself that a “success” has already happened, and therefore this promotes or increases your likelihood of actually GAINING that success.

IF you are “visualizing” your success prior to any actual success, you are setting up a self-fulfilling prophecy that … if i go back to using my example — would tell yourself that you will have LOADS and LOADS of respect if you just punch that guy over there in the face. THEN, after you punch the guy, you are LOOKING for the respect rather than the condemnation — and of course, you will then see only the respect instead of any condemnation, and therefore determine that God approves of your action, and you are doing God’s will.

Now ………… how this fits in with our POTUS —- is when he lies about things such as being “the president to pass the most legislation since Truman.” He is employing… is SO ingrained with the positive thinking and visualization methods … that he is actually saying his GOAL is to pass more legislation than any other president. Whether it actually happened or not does not matter, he has entered into the stage of this belief system where aging has confused the line between the wish — the visualization — and the actual event.

OR, he is using the public forum to voice his internal “positive affirmations” and is oblivious to how that dicks with the reality and perception of others. Either way, it’s not a good thing.

I think one of the things on everybody’s mind, is how and where does the president get his information? We are used to believing and knowing that the USA president has access to more information than the citizens. That he gets briefings and is kept aware of the various happenings not available to the public. But his communications WITH the public, are on matters that happen AFTER any release to the public. Like he is getting his briefings from the TV and has no other influences or information other than watching the news.

And that is not only strange, it is creepy. Even if you assume that president Trump entered his position, telling himself that he would only comment on issues already in the public eye …….. perhaps to keep from accidentally spilling the beans on important matters of state — then his manipulations are alarming because it is possible he believes whatever spin of the day he is repeating. Also there is the chance that he designed the spin and released it first.

Either way — it’s alarming and not good.

The trump manner of speaking almost completely mirrors and patterns the speaking mannerisms of Norman Vincent Peale. From the use of humor, to the waving of the hands and repetition of words with very simple diction and non-complicated points. “You must embrace positivism by being positive!” And Peale thrusts his finger in the air.

The only problem, is that for positive to even be a positive, there must be a negative. There is no salvation for all, but a damnation for others that proves your own salvation is the will of God.

Now, it’s easy to scream out that is so wrong! Simply for being against established Christianity or Catholicism and Protestant beliefs. But i’m not concerned about the opposition as much as what kind of repercussions having a high-level official IN this religious process — causes.

And it’s possible that the Peale format is a very fine way of designing and constructing a society. I doubt it. But after centuries of Christian results, what do these opportunistic forms of Christianity represent and how will their impact play out?

After all, many earlier religions employed similar doctrines. Early Judaic believed Lepers and those visited with misfortune such as illness — the belief was that they were evil, and deserved it. That it was a “sign” that they were evil and God disapproved of them. It’s easy enough to consider that such a belief on a widespread scale, would hinder all efforts at healing. Little or no help would happen for those who were ill, because it would be considered the will of God and therefore just. Deserved. A judgment man himself could witness.

Well, in the Peale religion, you can witness God’s displeasure and judgment for those who are poor. If you are not successful, you are not following the will of God to become rich.

And so how would that hinder the efforts to raise the standard of living for others, and help those who are struggling? If someone else is poor, and that enforces your own belief that God made you rich because you are special and doing the will of God …………. how far does that reach to keeping others in poverty to affirm your own desire for superiority? The association with only other rich and wealthy people — hanging out with only those you consider blessed and doing the will of God — gives a very deliberate blind-eye to the goodness in the poor, a disregard or lack of knowledge, even. and THEN the meter for “goodness” is set by the wealthy, whose morals may be VERY subpar. And so the “poor” are thought of as HAVING to be worse than themselves, when it comes to level of morality.

Now …… I don’t know about you, but my observation is that the poor often give more and show more compassion for others than any other group. Sure, they might steal your stereo. Then they take all their friends out to lunch. I suppose there could be a lot of debate on that either way. My point is, that in general — the person who is giving a sandwich to the homeless guy on the corner, is NOT the wealthy driving by in their limo. It’s the little old lady living off of her social security check, who was moved by compassion.

Anyway ………. Peale.

The whole source of Donald Trump’s odd behavior is Norman Vincent Peale.

Incidentally, the publisher of Guideposts, a daily devotional used in the Lutheran church where i grew up, and many others. There is some evidence that through Guideposts, Peale worked to subvert traditional beliefs in a way that made his own doctrine more acceptable and seemingly logical.

Imagine if the Mormons had published a nation-wide magazine — introduced into other religions through very strategic contacts — and then that magazine contained stories that subtly changed the thinking on monogamy and how bigamy is viewed, and making it seem more acceptable. The outcome for the practice of bigamy in America might be very different than what we have today.

(I don’t care whether bigamy is good or bad. There are arguments for both sides. And that’s the point.)

But I do feel that with a POTUS who is THIS vested in his cult-like religion, there needs to be an exploration of HOW that religion is effecting his decision-making. Such as the decision to lie in a speech regarding amount of legislation he has signed. If confronted, he would say “he heard it from somebody” or “everybody says so.” And the reality is that the positive thinking brain washing IN HIS HEAD, told him so.

And though Trump imbibes the speaking and mannerisms of Peale — he is NOT a Peale. He is a follower, trapped with no escape route. The differentiation between a religion and a cult, is in the consistency of what is believed by the leader versus what is believed and embraced by followers. The leader will believe very different tenets, or sometimes non at all in a nihilistic or atheistic approach. And then what they teach is designed as a trap, and those caught are NOT effective leaders. You have to be “in” on the methodology, but also there is really no way to graduate a follower into a leader, without letting them know that you were fooling them all along as a follower.

Anyway, from what I can perceive, Trump is a follower of Peale and never graduated into a leadership role in his cult. So he is still operating under the Peale formula for Peale’s followers, a formula designed in large part for enriching Peale himself. In a way, it’s the only cult formula that allows for “high living” by the leader, through explaining that the imbalance — his gathering of wealth from followers — is a sign by God that he is doing God’s will.

Do you find this tiring? I find it very tiring. Oh well …. here’s the thing. There is no proof that standard Christianity is the greatest thing on earth, and any perversion of it is wrong. And there is plenty evidence that more atrocities have been done in the name of God, to the effect that all religion is evil and cultish.

But when you have a belief system that revolves on sharing belief… then that is more like a democratic religion? Where having a religion with separate rules or understandings for its leaders, is more of a kingship or dictatorship.

And so the question is what are the different beliefs involved within the Peale cult? From all appearances, he follows his own advice. Except for one crucial level … where the visualization to create your fortune, has also been the way he created his own fortune. Because his was done with tremendous planning and orchestration. He didn’t just “think positive.” And in that sense, the followers — IF there had a been a Peale that Peale had followed as a boy — he would never have become Peale the leader.

And a leader that is a follower of the Peale doctrine, is one who believes that punching the guy in the face is not just the right thing to do, it is the BLESSED thing to do. It’s approved by God himself.

Peale had one hell of a sense of humor. And at the foundation of things — Tricks are for kids? Tricks and hoodwinking is one way to entertain yourself as you go on in life. But trump is not reaching Peale’s level of being entertained. He is confused. He thinks it means he should be more cruel. Maybe he should start breaking legs as well as punching in the face. Or maybe he should try hugging the other guy. The problem is HE DOESN’T KNOW.

His moral guidance — you could almost say natural moral tendencies — have been tampered with. Unlike many who originally joined Peale’s cult, Trump was raised in the cult. So he didn’t receive any foundation from another morality-based religion. His introduction was not the dichotomy of suddenly being able to do everything that you were taught was wrong. NO. He is the product of having no other morality in place, other than Peale’s.

And at this point … it would take minds greater than my own to figure out exactly what that means. But what it stands for or what can be concluded …. is that he, Trump — is out of the formula range. He is NOT in any planned religious state by Peale — because Peale planned to be dead by the time those who grew up in his cult came into an age of influence.

His formula did NOT take into account further generations. Screw that, take the money and run.

SO ………. Therefore ……….. the generations of those raised in the Peale (evangelical) faith could be time bombs waiting to go off.

Either through careless planning or deliberate last joke on society. Result is same. My point is that cults primarily work to exploit a need not fulfilled by other religious experiences. They get engineered for removing others FROM traditional religions, not for BRINGING UP followers in the faith. So they have an expiration date.

And so, something like the Mormon church — constantly evangelizes. Because they need that new blood to carry on their formula. Those raised in the Mormon faith have an entire different outlook, because they do not have the dichotomy provided by coming from another faith. Jury is out still, as far as I’m concerned. I’m not seeing too many societal problems with those raised in the Mormon faith, other than sexism, racism, etc — which society at large is already inundated. And the only problem that exists, which also exists with evangelism and other cults — is the expiration date that folds into their formula an “end of times.”

So you don’t have to worry that Jimmy’s mom needs to hire and pay a doctor to fix Jimmy’s face — a face you used for a punching bag because that validated your belief in God ———— you don’t have to worry about him needing a doctor, because tomorrow will not come anyway. An expiration date exists, is woven into the cult formula. This ensures a disregard of fallout within society for the repercussions CAUSED by that collective belief.

Whew ……………….. I know all this stuff. It’s just hard getting it all presented.

Because I do have a point to this write. A reason why I felt the need to share what I know. Firstly, there is a very slim line between “religion” and “cult.” At some point in history, every major religion began as a cult and only developed into a religion over testing through time. The formula was tested for the type of society or the viability for survival — of the society it created.

Ones that did not stand the test of time, we term mythology. Or that’s part of it. Dead religions that basically destroyed the host they infected.

And what I’m getting at, is Christianity was not designed to shoulder this kind of “transformation” and evangelism as well as mormonism … (haha not a word) …..needs to be viewed as a cult or new religion. Just because someone screams they believe in Jesus, doesn’t mean they are following the path or teachings of Jesus. And the church, Christianity itself has split so many times, you could argue that there is no such thing as an age-tested and stable religion. They all split and morph as the society they are within adapts and grows.

But the formula, the Christian formula is in the bible itself. The transformations are in large part done with what is disregarded as no longer relevant. So the term of cult is also for the designation of adding moral rules or regulations. The wrong of a cult is not within any change of omitting parts of the formula, it’s a change by adding to the formula. Or having a completely different formula that only mimics some elements of a proven formula.

And of course, we are talking about formulas for social control or social manipulation. Ways in which humans can work together without killing each other. Or that is the general idea.

The Peale formula involves NOT working together. It is a policy of elimination. You are eliminating the guy you punch in the face, because God wants him eliminated. In this way, it fits in snugly with right-wing German elimination policy that creates such things as the holocaust and genocide on almost an industrial level.

And THIS is my concern. My concern is that the Peale formula for “positive thinking” goes terribly awry and into elimination policy. Which then explains the problem with mass shooters and bullies, etc etc. …… the social policies initiated by Peale …… and WIDELY ACCEPTED …….. have led to what could easily become a self-destructing society.

I can’t go back and change the moves, the cause and effect patterns are too large to even map. I don’t want to follow the fascist manner of finding “one” enemy and deciding that enemy is the WHOLE problem and everything would be perfect without them. Because that plays into the formula that is set up by occultists in the first place. And really only works with a time machine to eliminate people before they initiate a cause. And then we’re down the rabbit hole.

But I AM saying that this is something we should be aware of when puzzling over the president’s behavior. He is using the same cult-methods for leading, that he was taught by following them.

I don’t know where that leads. But I can tell you that Peale was no genius, or no magnanimous genius — and where it IS going was NOT planned.

Now, more than ever, it is important to embrace the meaning of Christianity itself — which is Love. The tenets of Christianity — love thy neighbor as thyself, Love the Lord your God with all your heart.

Not do everything you can to get God to love you and make you comfortable. That is hedonism. Not get them before they can get you. That is fascism. Not every man out for himself. That is nihilism or chaos.

No. The formula must begin with Love, and we are still hammering out the details for the rest of it. But omitting the Love element in the equation creates a very different sort of social animal. One that will punch you in the face and call it God’s will that you have a broken face. It is sad enough for those who believe hurting others is God’s will. It is magnitudes worse if the one with the broken face, also believes.

There is a way to create hell on Earth, and that is the way. “Just think positive!” Go blow yourself, Mr. Peale. The way to success is not through riches … a wealthy man entering heaven is as likely as a camel fitting through the eye of a needle. And even removing heaven — which we have in our social structure, have removed both heaven and hell ……. so even without heaven as a destination. The pursuit of happiness … joy for a wealthy man is as likely as fitting a camel through the eye of a needle. Or fitting a Trump into a golf hole.

Joy is in the giving. Love is in the action. Existence is not fulfilling a destiny, but creating your own. What I believe doesn’t matter, I am merely a product of my social environment. This is the end product of the equation we have so far.

And the only issue is that in removing the Devil, the need for opposition to overcome and find purpose — is fulfilled by opposing other humans. Human beings are called evil or toxic instead of “all God’s children.” And then that gets channeled into fascism and off to the races we go.

But imagining “demons” and that delusion process — is extremely problematic in the electronics age. To the point that we would not be able to enter the electronics age without dropping the “demon” and “devil” placeholders for opposition. So this is the right path, unless we go back and undiscover electricity.

Which might not be a bad thing, but a little late now. And many theories exist for ways forward. Best paths and beliefs for a society. But that must begin with an eye for the longevity of a nation or people. There are many theories for ways forward, but no unknown ways back. The bad paths are known, studied and even set up as monuments of lost civilizations, so we can sigh at them and say “well…at least they tried.”

We have been visited with images of a destroyed society — the statue of liberty sunk in the sand. The streets torn apart and overgrown with vegetation. And maybe that is the fate of all societies. But maybe not. Maybe we can continue without cults and without an Apocalypse. Maybe Love can win.

I for one, am unable to Love someone who is punching me in the face. I never really “got” the part of Christianity that tells you to turn the other cheek. It might be what I’m missing … what WE’RE missing. I’m going to think on that a bit.

So that’s it … be well, live long and joyfully. Until next time.

And keep an eye on that Mr. Trump. A Peale disciple AND DO NOT FORGET THAT.

Saved Comment

wanted to save a comment i wrote in a thread this week regarding conspiracy theories:

the majority of americans don’t use guns to defend themselves, they use them to kill themselves. and i’m ok with that. seems better than a formal institution of euthenasia. this is america — i don’t believe we should have no guns. too many open spaces that are unpopulated with no police nearby. this isn’t the UK. we have a lot of land. so the price paid is all the suicides, and things like the mass shootings that are so senseless. what you do when that happens, is go “thank god i wasn’t in vegas that day.” to say that you “see” so greatly, and that it did not really happen, or is a conspiracy … that’s fine. but you need to see how you are being played. and also need to let it all go. stop watching the news and find something good in your community that you can accomplish. do something to help others. be a reality.
the instant communication and copious amounts of news does not suit those who cannot disengage their minds and enter back into reality. look at your shoes. what color are they? come back to yourself. where there is life there is hope. and where there is hope, there is another day to find a little bit of the grace God puts into it. fear serves no purpose. paranoia even less.
people will play with your head. that’s what people do. but compassion is something we can all have for our fellows — whether they are playing us or not.

guns cut the population. the majority of death by gun are suicides. at some point, it will be nice if american men can set them down, and determine they don’t need to decide on death. until then …….. i will grow my garden and water my flowers and pray that decency outlives those who want to harm others.
trying to get others paranoid is a harm. it’s not nice. serves nothing, and in the end — collective madness is no better than singular madness.

i know what i’m talking about. be well — and let the ideas of conspiracy have a backseat to your own life and own hopes. reality is a much better place to play …. there is a way to be happy. it’s by not letting fear rule you or yours. god takes care of the fools and the irish, and thank god i’m irish. my grandma always said that. it’s a mathematical puzzle. that’s why it’s funny.

i can tell who taught you the rhetoric you used. i know it. i know the vein of where and what and how. i can see that much, and it’s quite maddening. so i live a quiet life and do what i can. i make mistakes. i also own up to them, and have paid dearly with everything but my own life. so that, i’m going to treasure. what you do when paranoia strikes you, is start thinking of all the things that go right. start focusing on the opposite – notice the things you are not noticing. realize that you are placing the things you DO notice in a pattern.

patterns are comfortable. they are insurance. they are the way tomorrow starts at 7 am just like today started at 7 am.

it’s natural and understandable. but not everything is going to fit into your pattern of conspiracy, and so you warp it to fit. and then you build this entire pattern and supposed perception upon what you know has to be truth.

no such thing. are all abstract concepts, and what matters is that matter exists. it is ordered naturally — not by man nor by his perception. it’s SO beautiful ……. life is beautiful. and it sucks. and it weeps. and it is aggravating as hell when all you want is to be understood.

important thing, is i’m not afraid to look like a fool writing on and on …………. because i take the time to help. it’s who i am. what i believe in, even after being mistreated by this society and harmed more than you can imagine. i still love it, because i understand how people fall to temptation. i understand how nobody’s perfect. and i know how some plot and scheme and work to get whatever it is they think they want or need. that makes them the fool, not me. so i don’t give a rat’s ass who or what does this or that. i certainly don’t care about what others say on how that should effect me. and i don’t care that you are fond of believing “they are out to get you.” what i care about, is that whoever played you is not a nice person. what i care about, is that i need to get back to work editing photos — so tedious! what i care about … is i don’t want to see america dissolve into chaos and insanity. funny thing about fear, is when you are not afraid, you handle things better. that’s where we need to be.
it’s not about guns, or crazy, or how to dissect the truth. it’s about purpose and value for individual lives.

it doesn’t matter “who” is in control. i know what i’m doing right now. i know what i’ve been doing. i know i don’t want to see others go through the pain i went through.

first, you have to realize that you don’t need to be that important.

quantum infinity to the absolute power of erratic thought

re: new concepts in quantum realities.

the thing about every concept, is the same one that plagues calibration. if you have three dials to calibrate audio, at least one has to remain at zero. with no solidified dial, any work to calibrate is only going to be successful by sheer luck. which is fine, if the intent is to spend your time playing with dials. but if your intent is to have a superior audio, then the important part of calibration is what you keep the same. i see theories that venture into areas of non-matter as playing with the dials.

now it’s always possible, that the dial you selected to remain steady, is the one that creates the most differences. so the only way you are going to know that, is if at some point you move that dial. confront other realities. i’m a structural engineer at heart. and an efficiency expert fan. lately i’m trying out the ideology for eliminating the concept of empty space. while science has accepted this for quite some time, that unless you are living in a vacuum, your air is not empty. the reality for most people is that an empty room is empty. that the sky is a wide, open space. that they are not IN something, but that they are ON something. so before science rushes off to disprove the nature of matter itself, they might want to make sure everyone has a working knowledge of it, first. because their other dials aren’t calibrated. so moving that one, will throw it into feedback screeching as surely as…. the sun rises and sets?

NO, mr. president, gas prices are NOT at a 10 year low… summer prices, my dear … SUMMER

our president is so stupid, he doesn’t even know that the stats for gas prices get a good spin every year to inspire people to get out and travel for the summer.

a good spin increases the demand while pricing already higher for the summer. helps prevent a surplus at the end of the summer causing problems. so they spin the stats. but instead of knowing those are spun stats for a reason…. and instead of knowing that people remember gas has been lower even just a few months ago…. the president takes the yearly “get out and vacation” gasoline news as some sort of personal bragging right.

this is how stupid our president is. somebody please get him out of office quickly.

and what infuriates me about this, is he spreads what he barely comprehends and barely hears with half an ear…. and posts things without even understanding the spin. like he never watched or read news until he was in it. never grasped the difference between “lowest summer gas prices in ten years” and “lowest gas prices in ten years.” his tweet should have left most people scratching their heads, since they paid lower prices just last month. but instead… INSTEAD, everybody was accepting the information that gasoline was at a ten-year low. they only objected to the fact he was bragging. but they accepted his premise hook, line, and sinker. did not believe he would lie on something like that. but also because it mirrored news casts that were more careful in their wording to make sure their spin didn’t register formally as a lie.

the reality is that average gas prices hit their most recent low in february and are now climbing again. gee, i wonder what happened in february 2017?

so i’m just throwing my hands up in the air at this point. how gosh darn out of touch and reclusive do you have to be to not realize the news pushes travel every year? they certainly don’t ever say “stay at home and save that gasoline, check out museums in your home town.” christ…..

and how incapable do you have to be to not know how to google “gasoline recent price charts” …seriously. how irresponsible do you have to be to spread something like that without checking first. how caught up in your own ego? to imagine that your presence magically fixed something, not the extra refineries brought online. more supply, price goes down. more demand, price goes up. it’s why you get to buy all that cheap crap in china and sell it here under a trump brand. you’d think he’d be familiar with the concept.

which means ………. complete hoodwink. guy is a worthless cheat. you all need to get him out of there. we are vulnerable every minute he stays, because no one will believe him now in a national address in case of emergency. even his followers feel he is lying to be crafty and shrewd. so even they, won’t be convinced something is truth or lies unless it is verified. we are in a situation where the words and directive of the president of the united states must be verified by the people at another source, before being believed. we will have mass confusion on a scale never seen before.

GET …. HIM ….. OUT!