Every Now and Then

Every now and then I wonder
Every now and then I see
Every now and then I look away
When you look right at me…

It’s a shame we aren’t forgiven
For all the things we’ve never done
All the hopes we’ve never shared
All the games we’ve never won

Every now and then I wonder
Every now and then I see
A light ahead
A darkness
A journey just for me

There’s no sin for being worthless
For there’s nothing left to prove
There’s no heart that can’t be broken
There’s no love that’s always true

Though I try to see the dawn
Up there ahead it’s kind of faint
There will be an answer soon
Where soon forever paints … the sky a deeper blue
A striking red! A hit
Of colors, flaming
through the next day … After you went away
Now gone

I only sing my song to fly
I only worship open skies
Then ask myself …

Every now and then I wonder
Every now and then I see
Has it mattered … does it matter
What is best for me?
Has it mattered
Does it matter?
What is best for me …

Every now and then
I’m jealous
Of the River that meets the Sea


Strong is my Consternation

The interesting thing about insults is they are tells.

1. That the individual felt the need to belittle someone else. (ego needs lift)

2. Insults used against others are most often the kind that would hurt themselves the most. (Pinpoints vulnerabilities)

The thing to understand, is an insult rarely fits the person receiving it. Even exaggerations have a direction, exposing their source.

Insults are often used as a junction of commiseration … mutual feelings among fellows. It is important to recognize that use, as it negates the tell regarding lift to the ego. Instead, that tell points to loneliness or a shaky reality.

Therefore, those gop that thrilled to call others weak (snowflakes) — are themselves extremely afraid of being perceived as weak. A resurgence of “real men don’t cry.” Or more importantly, the need for imperviousness within a society of large competitive factors.

And so, the factors and realities of competition, and how those are molded and melded into the functions of a society … in relation to levels of violence versus levels of peace.

I would be perfectly fine with high levels of peace. However, many are not, and find that higher levels of discord are more entertaining. Those more tuned to outward perspectives, need more outward entertainment.

And one way to disturb the peace, is to level insults … directly or behind backs. To choose enemies. If only we were as diligent in “choosing” friends! If only. The insults that hurt me the most, are those tied to factors not under my control.

Or even “constructive criticism” after i have tried my very best, seems particularly cruel. The largest tell in those who enjoy insulting others, is the joy itself. The happiness achieved in lessoning the joy of others. Which that, then, is a tell for sadism.

The distinction of sadism is in what it canNOT achieve. Which is an inner joy from the happiness of others. The power is a thrill or drug, the joy felt by the unhappiness of others. And power has its antithesis, which is humility.

The humble rarely insult others. Blessed are the meek… I believe that kindness is stronger than insults. That living well does not need to mean better or worse. That being a person who understands others can make you smile and make you cry. But it doesn’t make you weak.

Possible adverse effects of an overly-imaginative youth

So my hypothesis goes ……..

What IF the facet of imagined emotive response — REPLACES the active sector of REAL emotive response. In that, if a child FIRST learns about anger through imagination — the feeling is imagined BEFORE it is actually felt — then DOES that imagined responsive process supplant any actual response that might have occurred.

So am looking at this as a possible root for illogical and contrary responsive processes — as opposed to the root being only group-think or simply following a process of expectations.

And in tandem with this hypothesis, then — would be the social manipulation involved with gravitating toward experiencing emotive states that align more truly — MORE. For example, if the emotive response of love as IMAGINED, is far off the track from what an actual and untainted response would be — and the emotive response of hate as imagined, is CLOSER or more in line with what an actual and untainted response would be …………. then ………. conceivably there would be a gravitating or inclination to experience HATE more than LOVE, because it would conceivably “feel better” to be more in alignment with reality.

OR …. if hate or anger is EXPERIENCED …. BEFORE it is imagined. Such as a spank on the bottom of a baby right after it is born. THEN that emotive response is hardwired with reality — versus emotive responses like romantic love, that are often imagined first.

My purpose in looking at this, is to enhance the perspective of social engineering for the determination of inadequacies that lead to facets of social chaos and social vulnerabilities that lead to instigation of targeted propaganda. In other words — to stop the chains that are getting yanked.

With greater communications and interactions, those yankings are happening at faster and faster rates ……… and we need to think LIKE THE ORIGINAL builders of our social systems, in order to repair them.