the needs of the many

You take a pain reliever
And the headache lessens
You feel better

Take an antibiotic
And the infection goes away
You feel better

Take cold medicine
Sleepiness and oblivion ensues
Eventually, you will feel better

Take pills for mental illness
Life becomes an uphill battle
Better is not going to happen
Not for you
It’s a matter of least damage
It’s a matter of seeing the trees for the forest
When the forest is dark and lonely

But others will feel better
Yes they do
Sometimes it’s worth it

I tried to explain
You don’t take them for yourself
But I couldn’t make him understand
Instead I get the smirk that tells me
The person is seeing me through THAT filter
They are only seeing the lowly
An idea judged bad because of its source
Generally because someone can’t accept a truth…

I get that a lot
It’s very tiring
To be the low with high ideals

I couldn’t make him understand:
Nobody would subject themselves
To these types of medications
Unless it was for the sake of others

It gives those others comfort
A placebo
A feeling that everything is now fixed
We’re all better now
And you let them believe that
If you are kind…

You don’t burst their bubble
But I would think … well …
Would think he could absorb the truth
Bad judgment on my part

Most of those rounded up
and tagged as mentally ill
Do NOT take medications for their own sake
Because most of the medication for mental illness
Will have too many side effects for there to be
Any kind of overall positive effect
You don’t take them to make yourself feel better
You take them so others will feel better
That is the stone-cold truth
Leave those others to a world that makes sense
To them
Don’t rock their boats

It’s better this way
Trust me
Otherwise degrees of scrutiny
And distrust are unbelievably harsh
Very hard to handle
They become paranoid
Those you know do in fact have severe problems
They have trust issues

You take the medication so others will get better

Guess you have to be crazy
To see the irony

Humans take a pain reliever
And the headache lessens
Human feels better

Humans take an antibiotic
And the infection goes away
Human feels better

Humans take pills for mental illness
Human feels worse
But other humans show signs of improvement
Other humans are feeling better

Who is the one that’s getting treated?
It’s an amazing recovery

Can’t be denied
results repeat over and over the same
over and over and over
it’s a well-tested theory!

… funny when you get
that explanation or excuse made
even when you hear it about others,
“well, he went off his medication!”

and i just kind of think good lord…
IF he really did stop medication
it’s because he started caring more
about himself than he did about you

so when you tell me, “he went off his medications”
i sort of think well maybe you don’t deserve
to have him sacrifice himself for you any longer?

it’s just that you all will never see
how bloody ridiculous the whole thing is
will never comprehend that my greatest worry
during it all is that “they” are searching for
one medication that can be administered to
a population at large through the water supply
or by some other means

i have worried about that from the very start
it was and still is the most logical conclusion
knowing mankind as i do….

and i worry that ones like me
the testers
are being used to determine what that
one medication will be

or maybe several depending
on how they want the populations to act
depending on the objective

it’s one of those things you look at as inevitable
but changing ideology on
“taking pills to get better”
has been really, really hard
and since there’s nothing i can do
i have to vote for trust
and not be a paranoid idiot myself…

i have to let it go
even though odds are on the other side of the fence

even though playing blind
and sticking head in the sand
is a better approach

that doesn’t make the truth any less truthful

and odds are that “chemical warfare”
will, and already has taken an entirely different turn
you don’t always want people dead
sometimes you just want them to be cowed….

moo frickity moo….moo moo moo moo moo
god help us all
if you play with fire, is it the fire’s
fault or your fault?

This world won’t adjust to ME
I have had to change and change and change…
yeeeeesh … you have no idea how much i want God to help us all!
But I will always look out my windows
And the day is still different than the night



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