and we weep for the dead by eebrinker

my belief
is more important to others
than it is to me…

I always saw it as inconsequential
floating the boat takes all kinds
of personal misconception

delusion

the only real delusion is
conviction

thinking you know when you can’t know
and even then …
can be convinced you can’t know as its own conviction

how out of this endless maze?
importance

what is important?
good will
peace
beyond that, interaction
we term everything that is stress, bad
but it’s just another food

every understanding is structured within the one before
or upon
and so in order to repair understandings
have to back track
man does not take items as individualistic comprehensions:
the ball is spherical
a sphere is round
the drawn circle in the sand is a ball…
built into dimensional perspective

which is itself, a conviction

so there are a few things in life that are very real:

betrayal
pain
and tenacity

the only necessity of ‘understanding’ the world
the only reason for wishing to understand the world

is prediction
survival
and then of course, orchestration

comes down then to pattern
and we have the fractal paradise
of entwined and repetitive belief

which in all essence only builds on
and feeds on
itself

often I come back to the fact
that sitting to even ruminate this
does not stop my coffee from growing cold

so there IS pattern
but pattern doesn’t have to be a prison
weavings of the many definitions for what is good or right

what I believe is more important to others than it is to me
and not really something that could describe

i believe i myself
have a duty to improve conditions

if at the history of levels
the determination was doom (for death is death)
then the process of calming
reassuring a(the) mind(s)

is a religion or belief or something to keep
things moving despite
panic

and despite belief
we don’t get to choose what we see
we also don’t get to choose what we comprehend

horrification

so that’s where it’s at
man wishes to be proof against horrification

thinks that is “strong”
strong spirit … but it is not
it is false reassurance

it is the flexibility
to be horrified or not horrified
as one chooses

that is strength

and it is in not being paralyzed
despite belief

not because of it …
not because belief cushions you
from the horrifications of reality

being able to say belief is not necessary
for after all

belief is simply consensus

it is a bond
the joining of mind and will? the joining of many, into what?

joined-many-e-s deciding the course of
pacification? not a lot of harm can be done there
mind and wills joined
only believe that joining equals more ‘power’

but of course, it doesn’t

i look at mendacity

the structure that concludes destruction
is better than observation

it’s not that it wearies-me

it’s that i am limited by language itself
language is a consensus
a joint belief

we can run and jump and play
but we can’t explain how the motivation is love
but it’s not love either

love is really not anything
because it’s too many things…

good will
but no …. not that either
since a constant ‘good will’ if not balanced
with foresight — becomes ineffective
caught in the wheels
ground into the dirt….

no
there is a need to let go,
oh we have that ‘philosophy’ running strong
for the moment

but all the letting go in the world
does not assist a spirit trapped in terror
we have the presupposition of the “it”

let IT go — and oh the best I’ve seen on that
is the Stephen king it, the book of course
the movie i did not even bother with…

what is the “it” that we need to let go OF?
and so that is a question-maker….
what “it’s” do i need to “let go?”

too much
too many
too stress ……. oh well,
saturation

happens ….. yet not the end-all
life has a way of churning
and becoming new incarnations that are old incarnations
yet not since
not then

……..but now!

security
belief
comprehension
shame

reduction
empower – ment —- higher power and then
no

responsibility

that i fight
where i come from
whatever that thing is
responsibility is the glue

the thing that designs
the

next
better
pattern

reflections
beams of light and sensory
perception

all something then constructed

into what you
what me and i

might call our day

is it a good day?
you don’t know until it’s over

or do you?

so come back around to time
(isn’t that conveniently circular)
and how time and belief
and understandings on length of life
or duty or the path of the spirit

brings any to the fact that we have a deadline

only so much time to do what you can
do

the answer and questions so many authors explore
in so many works…

death and belief of death
is not that there is horrification over death

it is the fact that one person
cannot stand to see another person horrified
and so comforts

with any belief they can
any explanation
any way to bring about peace

when understanding is impossible

thing about that is everything implodes to the degree
and factors that it is complicated and built-up

and let-it-go is just not quite comprehensive enough
to define an optimal attitude

i like to think this can wait
but it can’t wait
we call the most difficult process in life
“making up your mind”

making up
creating
imagination

or a mask
make up for the face
for a better look
for better reaction from others

and i have experimented
endlessly

judging reactive states
thoroughly

they say what you see of yourself is more important than what others see of you
but that isn’t true
since what others see and believe your person to be
is an influential guide
onto how you see or what you believe of yourself

for others, i only want that to be good
i just want others to know i see good

as in this structure we have
of humans on this planet

this ‘community’

it’s alright

and in some ways, extremely fragile
fragile balance

but in others, a construct that is not dependent
on any one belief

and that’s how it should stay
no utopia

just the process of good will
developing itself into a sense
of age

so many things known to exist in wrongness
so many things designed by men who
were tortured of mind

and that is the study of those minds
and what led to some of the aspects

of furthering their personal pain
onward to others

that is something that can be tackled
and so ….

what i believe is that belief is a motivating factor

and i need motivation
a lot more than i need to know how i will end up
on the other side
of death’s indiscretion

what she believes i believe means a lot more to her than it does to me

why?

all i know is i don’t concern myself about what others believe
i hope they can think and process belief

not be sealed into one

what is moving onward?
exploration
as opposed to settlement

expansion
contraction
implosion

well we definitely have too many words
or too few

romance
dramatics

oh it’s a never no mind

i wish to have some good for myself but is all a matter of measuring

what the now is
as measure to past nows

and that is something that sometimes boggles my mind in scope

the degree of information inward that has churned
inside

and created a very different human being as i stand now
compared to as i stood then
might even be worse

there’s no way for me to know
i can only quantify a difference
can’t quantify ‘good’ or ‘bad’
better or worse

mostly i reserved … not on foresight
but according to all
around
creating a larger difference

and will continue to dig in and drag my feet

that is what i do
you have to slow a process before you can study it

and observation

is a much better alternative to destruction

belief is a much better alternative to horrification

and having an alternative
a choice

is a better thought
than worshipping despair
and elevating doom to your ‘god’ of choice

we say it is better to be part of the solution than part of the problem

that’s simply saying that good also can work in tandem

and might yet ………… but maybe part of good
part of the enrichment of life itself
is the fact that individuals
do make their own path and own way

you don’t try to block it
you just observe and move yourself
out of the way — except one thing as
the dance goes ………… don’t get too tired out
remember to say enough is enough

and enjoy your cup of coffee before it gets too cold

🙂

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4 thoughts on “and we weep for the dead by eebrinker

  1. dragonkatet

    I hope it was a good day for you – seemed like a good day for philosophy, at any rate. Was there something extra in your coffee before it got cold? Hehe I kid.

    If you look at life, all we really have is the present. Can’t change the past, can’t guarantee tomorrow, etc. But that present might also have parallels, too….another “you”s now might be totally different. I’ve always believed there are many paths to the top of the mountain.

    We all have our own crosses to bear, things of which to ‘let go’ (attachments?) and our “own paths” and pilgrimages to trek. Your belief IS all that really matters when it comes down to it. Sure others can influence, or even change it, but at the very end of your life, what YOU believe is what will matter most. Thanks for the thoughtful poetry today, E. As always, you give me much to ponder. Enjoy your java. 🙂

    • eebrinker

      haha thanks and i think the coffee is just coffee, you never know! but has been the lack of sleep, mostly, that puts my brain into slightly different gears. slept in today, and more practical if less deep on the philosophy. when said and done, the only person you have to please is yourself. how we go about that i guess is what defines society and collective ideals.

  2. dragonkatet

    P.S. The only good thing about the “movie” adaptation of IT was seeing Tim Curry as Pennywise. That was the first book that ever scared the living crap out of me. Still one of my favorites. King is, and has always been, a master storyteller.

    • eebrinker

      yes he is, it is in the weaving. classics, of course, have their place. but the weaving of a riveting story is both skill and the born storyteller.

      i think i read pet cemetery before ‘it’ … but the style definitely strikes as a deep understanding of ‘evil ‘ … the cost of that to the author himself is high. not something i would undertake. am relieved that in later years, king has allowed himself to weave in some heroics that save the day.

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