the answer is, at some point everyone gives up. it just seems strange since you always kept trying. sometimes the page hasn’t turned yet. life isn’t ready to show you what the next step will be. but we all prepare, and sometimes that takes time where life seems to be going nowhere. but truly, it is. it’s going everywhere. adventure, choice. are you going to worry about death? well that’s because life’s important to you! that’s a good thing! and the next page is maybe scary, maybe unknown. but you’ve lived through what’s happened so far, and no telling how many smiles you can yet give to others. it’s a harsh world, but i think you make it a better world. today is whatever today is. tomorrow is tomorrow. but the entire existence of man on earth — that is something to hope for. there will always be the understanding of the many, and the understanding of the few. don’t let your understanding drown you in complexities of never-ending remapping of the life that is already gone and lived. it is enough to remember how kind you can be. and how that kindness matters.